Up and Down

I have been up and down crabby all weekend. I'm not entirely sure what's up with that. Could be lack of sleep on Thursday night--but I repaired that with 13 hours of sleep on Friday night. Could be ramp-down of the Paxil, but I'm taking that very slow and so far have not experienced even a slight dizziness--first sign of withdrawal from SSRIs.

I had a relaxed weekend with some surprisingly nice conversation and time spent with the roommate and the Mad Scientist on Saturday, the roommate and a new acquaintance on Sunday.

The boys were both 'gone' and silence was loud on that end--nothing can be done for that.

I am highly annoyed with myself when I am highly annoyed with others. I dislike not having a buffer of patience. I dislike feeling lonely and out of sorts--especially when I am surrounded by others.

I dislike surprised when I walk into the door at work on a Monday morning. I really dislike downloading 732 emails only 2 of which are work related, the rest of which are spam.

I dislike that I'm nearly out of coffee and I don't get paid until Thursday.

I dislike the fact that I'm facing July, a month I hate because I observe the anniversary of two acute losses.

I dislike Mondays, period. And my current fractious mood doesn't really help that much, I'm afraid.

Coffee or not, I'm likely to bite today.

Be warned.

I bite, I scratch, I foam at the mouth.

I have not had all my shots.

Frump.

Things could get messy!

From this morning's San Francisco Chronicle:

BART riders who could find themselves stranded by a strike Friday morning are being warned to start thinking about alternate routes to work -- before Friday morning.

But unless that alternative is hunkering down at home, commuters should expect packed buses and ferries and Bay Bridge traffic tie-ups stretching for miles, as was the case during the last BART strike in 1997.

Fortunately I take the bus more often then BART, but I know several people who reply upon BART on a daily basis.

Full article here.

My most recent candidates for the DARWIN awards

Pilots' joke flight ended in death

Jamie Wilson in Washington
Wednesday June 15, 2005
The Guardian

Two airline pilots joked and laughed as they flew an empty commercial jet to its limits, switched seats in mid-air and ignored automated warnings before crashing into a residential area, a cockpit voice recorder has revealed.

Captain Jesse Rhodes and First Officer Peter Cesarz were both killed after they decided to "have a little fun" and take the 50-seat Pinnacle Airlines jet they were flying to 41,000ft - the limit of its capability. No one was hurt on the ground in Jackson City, Missouri, where the plane came down after suffering catastrophic engine failure.

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http://www.guardian.co.uk/usa/story/0,12271,1506514,00.html

(we can only hope this happened before they choose to breed.)